Dad's Present..

It's 1.00 am why haven't you slept?  Dad why did you leave me and go... I asked why didn't you sleep young lady.. Dad you are hearing me out too... Fine.. Wait!  What?  Who heard you out? Are you having relationships troubles?... No dad it's just you left me alone... I don't think boys like me... What makes you say that?  I am fat and no one likes FAT.. Nope soms guys like chubby girls.. Didn't I marry mommy?  Mom wasn't fat when she married you  dad...  but I do like chubby girls... Dad can we please concentrate here... Yes sorry... Is something wrong with me?  Why do I love people so much... Why don't they love me back the same way... If you are expecting somethings back it's not love my child... Dad please stop talking like mom.. I feel down sometimes I miss you when I see other girls with their dad's... I text him saying I feel down he doesn't respond... In the night  shamelessly I remind him about the message I sent him previously.. He says he feels sleepy let us deal with it tomorrow... Why are you laughing dad?  Seriously... He sounds more like me... I don't know dad I met him on your Bday.. He pisses me off at times.. but I really like him dad.. He behaves like a man that's what I like the most in him.. Other days he just asks me when are you becoming slim... He keeps asking me that dad... And did you try reducing weight...? Tell me pavi you feel happy being fat.. If yes just be the same you neednt  reduce it for anyone... If you are sad then go for it.. Everyone needs to change one day... Yes I want to look slim and attractive.. Fat people are also attractive beta.. No dad I want to become slim... So there is no point in him putting pressure.. What did you do to reduce? I joined gym... And? I am trying dad... How many hours do you spend there... One hr max.. That's a good start beta... Do you go regularly... No... Then what's the point?  Dad now you sound more like him....dad he feels sleepy always... When does he sleep?  By 11.. That's the time people sleep... But I don't feel sleepy... How is that his problem... If he is hungry will you eat? You are not a kid anymore pavi.. Dad is this why you paid me visit... I pity God how is he dealing with you up there.. He winked and said he got used to it... So God is a he?  Sorry can't reveal that my dad said.. Dad when I feel down why isn't he there for me... Then he is not the one my child my dad said... No dad he is nothing like that he always takes care of me... He protects me.. Blah blah... See now you are defending him... You are just like your mother... She loves me but she doesn't want to accept it... Yes and he is like you... Not bothered about anyone or anything... Taking life as it comes.... Sometimes we don't like to express beta.. We make secret plans for future...  Why don't  you get us involved?  I know why cos we are girls... Girls never know better... No not at all... Girls are more brilliant than us..the ways we think differ... When I planned for future your mom stood beside me... Dad do you think  I won't?  I never said that... Whatever it is give the guy some space....you know we are talking about marriage here... Real time commitment... I used to come home by 3.00 am daily..  I was busy always I never used to take you guys out only after this brain tumor thingy we went to beach remember... I don't remember dad lets keep it that way please...  OK the point is if mommy did the same thing who would have been there for you... We negotiate... We understand each other.. That's why we did it... If not mommy I really don't know if any other lady would marry a busy guy like me... I didn't compromise work with family.. I regret that sometime but that's who I was... If you really like him you adjust certain things... Dad I always adjust he never adjusts... He even wants the wedding to be his style like... God bless him that saves us the pure Kanchipuram silk madisar saree... Anyways you won't be using it after marriage... See the good things in everything pavi you will feel a lot less stressed.. I miss you daddy why are you not here?  I wish I could, I 'd give up anything  to get that back it's just too late for that pavi... Dad will we make  good couple?  Like you and mom.. That lies in your hands beta...you can't be us we were the best he said.. Its simple you love him he will love you more... You irritate him he is forever going to hate you... Dad I do love him... You love him just too much beta I get it cos you don't have me and having  a man in life feels good I don't blame you for that.. He Will get used to it.. Dad did I tell you he likes parrotas just like you do... And he is tall too but not as tall as you are.. Gosh a lot of similarities... Every now and then he likes to play cricket... That's good all the boys like cricket... You talk a lot about him you know beta... Well now that he sounds more like me your mom won't be having a good impression about him :D..  We laugh... Dad where is my bday present?  I did send it on my bday... I sent him to you.... Dad.... Bye darling I ought to go now... When will you be back?  Call me and I am right there for you my angel... Bye for now... 

Maa....

Maa get me water I asked.. She said get it yourself my leg hurts.. Maa why is this house so untidy why don't you clean it... I feel tired beta she said... but you haven't even cooked today maa..whats the big deal ma you can clean one room at a time na... Why don't you do it she asked.. I will if I get time.. I feel sleepy can you turn off the light... Maa but I wanna read this book.. Hufff OK fine...

Next day,  maa what's for breakfast.. Didn't make beta have it at your office na.. What will you eat then I Don't feel hungry beta she said... This is why you keep getting leg pain... OK bye maa.. 10missed calls.. Maa what happened is anything wrong why have u called me this many times... Are you not well... No beta it's 8:30 why are not home... Maa I come home only at 9:30 should I have to remind you everyday... You are losing memory maa...

Maa again you forgot your specs... See this is what I told you you are careless maa I think you should go walking... To stay active like our neighbor wali aunty... but she has her husband to take her beta who Will take me... I wink and tell her then marry na... She says I already did to the world's best man... God loved him so much he took him away from him... Please maa no more drama... I have to go now...

Beta can you apply this gel on my back... The pain is getting worst day by day.. but maa we can go to  hospital na... No need beta MRI will cost you more... But maa... No beta I am fine now...

Maa I need to rush the cab wala won't wait for me... Just one more beta don't go in empty stomach... Maa I am going for a vacation with team this weekend.. How can I stay alone she asked..anyhow you have to at one point I said jokingly... She became silent and left the room... I felt bad I said that...

Beta why are you crying.. Did you guys fight again?  Should I call him and talk? No maa...its fine... He never has time for me he never calls me or texts me or anything.. I feel so depressed.. He is always with his friends... I feel the same way from the day your dad left me beta she said.... This sentence really pricked me very badly...

Sometimes in this busy life... Many things seems to feel so important to us we forget about the little things happening around us...  Our mother asks us if we ate at least like a dozen of time... Have we ever asked her that? ...I don't think so... Our mother is getting old.. She keeps forgetting things.. She doesn't feel like cooking...  She feels lonely... For all that she did for me... I thought I made her proud... I finished schooling college I got a job... I thought I made her proud.. But no we all failed... As a son/daughter we failed... I am sorry maa... I really am SORRY.